I pose this question because of my many failed relationships. I pose this question because I wasn't told how to love however I was shown the meaning of love through all the wrong ways. I pose this question because well I didn't have my biological father in my life. I pose this question because for so many years I was deceived to believe that real love came from someone other than first coming from myself. I pose this question because I wasn't spiritually mature enough to know that what was spoken and preached at the pulpit wasn't being lived in my safe haven. I pose this question because so many of us are still caught up in the rapture of being hurt by many and loved by few. I pose this question because I have too, smile, I answer this question by saying once you have made your connection with God your Creator only then will you find REAL LOVE!
If one does not have a relationship with God or their HIGHER POWER don't believe the words that rolls from their lips. LOVE is FORGIVING, UPLIFTING, HUGGING, SMILING, TELLING YOU LIKE IT IS WHEN OTHERS WILL NOT, LISTENING TO YOU WHEN YOU NEED TO VENT AND GIVING YOU A POSITIVE ANSWER, LOVE IS MORE THAN A WORD FOR THOSE THAT TRULY HAVE IT, LOVE WILL NOT DECEIVE YOU, HURT YOU, JUDGE YOU NOR LIE TO YOU!
SO I POSE THIS QUESTION HOW CAN 1 LOVE WHEN THEY WEREN'T TAUGHT HOW 2 REALLY LOVE?
Written by Tonya E. Aka Miss Right Now
of Tonya E. Aka Miss Right Now Inc. 11.17.07
Today is Nov. 14, 2007 a date which has placed a mark on my heart. I will not get too much into it however I will just say that it includes love and wanted to be loved, whew.. I am writing this piece today because of several events that are happening in my personal life as well and what has been in the news. Whether I’m sitting in my chair, or laying down on my bed I’m always thinking of what the world has turned into and why so much chaos is happening? Well, not long after my thoughts are released I am given answers within my inner spirit that everything is happening because everything is already written, smile... So saying that let me elaborate on my thoughts and release what is on my heart. In the awake of Kanye West mother Dr. Wonda West passing on Nov. 10, 2007 and the claiming cause made my stomach ache and then two days later I found out a classmate of mine from the 5th grade passed in July 2007 from complications of giving birth to her second child. I am telling you all this because they both share several things in common. One, both were mothers themselves, two both were warned about the risk of their choices and three they both loved life to the fullest. The sad thing which hit a core within my heart with the passing of Dr. Donda West was that she went through a procedure to change her God-given image. What’s even more sad is that there’s an unaccountable number of women going under the knife to change their features to fit the IMAGES that SOCIETY post in magazines, music videos, radio and television commercials. Society has brainwashed women of all ages to not love themselves for whom they are to love the image of what they see on someone else. It saddens me that a son lost his mother under the cause of something that could have been prevented, however I am a believer that God has a way of allowing events to happen to catch our attention. One of my many gigs in the music industry I worked at an artist development company and one of the primary areas we dealt with was ones IMAGE! Don’t get it twisted IMAGE CONSULTING didn’t just start, it has been about from the BEGINNING of TIME! What I am saying is that being that we’re in this time of our lives and living it, it’s very crucial that we bring more awareness of building self-esteem and self-love into the mind, body and soul of our young girls, teenagers and now grown women. Question, "Has image taken over the concept of what LIFE and LOVE is suppose to be about?" Has REAL LOVE been trashed down the toilet when the REAL CIVIL RIGHTS LEADERS and MOVEMENTS PAST ON? Dang, excuse me for a minute as I collect my emotions, it really saddens me to see all of these things happening because one is not comfortable with themselves. I will share with you one of my own personal experiences. I was always a very petite young girl growing up well into my earlier 20's. Well, after I changed my lifestyle of dancing and hanging out, I began to put on some weight. I also became pregnant at the age of 26 and weighed in 217lbs at my son’s delivery. Now, I am only 5'3" however my weight went well into my stomach and I guest some slipped into my backside, lol, however remember I was always activity so my 217lbs didn’t look like it’s weight. Anywho after having my son and going back to shaping my life into being a single mother my weight became like a roller coaster. I would see people that use to see me when I was in my dancing era and smaller shape and ask what happened to me. I kindly laughed and said I am a fully grown woman now, and what? They would reply with a laugh as well and say you look good. Now please note if I didn’t look at myself in the mirror and my self-esteem wasn’t in order, I would have ran away to a place a hid. See, I had accepted that my body was going through many changes. I must say that my last ex-boyfriend would talk about my weight to me and I did become self conscious at times. I for one knew I was a bit overweight however I never had a problem in the dating department. What had transpired in that relationship was my then boyfriend had his own insecurities and he was lacking in other areas of being the man he should have been. I didn’t allow it to affect me as much as one would have because I knew his reasons for being cruel. Well, today I am no longer in that relationship and I am much smaller in my figure, because I took back my life and began to love me again. I have shared this part of my personal life because I too at one time wanted to do an extreme make-over. I started to think about how I use to look in my teens and early twenties, lol. Well, after seeing the show Extreme Make Over and not seeing people like myself I settled for the next best thing, LA Weight Watchers, lol. Now I will say while being out on my first trip of disability from an on the job injury I did extremely great, however after returning back to the field I lost motivation and track of eating right! Note again I was not doing it for someone else I sort of allowed my sick thinking to make me feel like I was so out of shape that no man was going to want me if I didn’t get myself back into shape. I never have been one to be concerned about being accepted among a group of people, however I still had an issue of being truly loved by my mate for who lives within me and not what they were able to see of me, my IMAGE! See, okay inner spirit, she just jumped in with this one IMAGE = I’M AGE (I’m aging).. Dang now that was a good one inner spirit thank you for that one.. It makes sense if we women more than men realize that with age we will change. and can begin to really love ourselves. We will refrain from making someone rich from re-creating our GOD GIVEN IMAGES! See just as many of us know that GOD CREATED each and everyone of US IN HIS IMAGE, why do we think it’s our RIGHTS TO ALTERNATE HIS ART that were designed ESPECIALLY FOR OUR OWN UNIQUENESS? Whew, now that was DEEP! Read it again if you must just in case you didn’t feel your spirit shake! Um I got a feeling that we’re losing way too many people because we have allowed the model magazines and it’s elites to stay in business. When was the last time you visited an Modeling Agency and seen some of the women that are not model materials working to put out their next issue. Um, Something to think about... Now let me continue to my piece and this part is dedicated to my belated classmate Nicole F. I remember Nicole as being a real clown, lol, Nicole was light-skinned, long beautiful black hair and very pretty. Nicole I got my thought together and sent the gentleman a message asking if this was my 5th grade friend Nicole and I included how I knew of her. Well the next day I as I logged onto myspace a message was waiting for me. I click to open and read what I didn’t want to hear, however it confirmed that yes it was my 5th grade friend and she past this July 2007 from complication of giving birth to her second child. My emotions were like again another roller coaster. As I read on he noted to me that she was WARNED about her risk of having her unborn child, however SHE WANTED SO BADLY TO HAVE HER CHILD! Nicole loved herself and unborn so much that she took the risk of bringing a her child into this world we know with so much IMAGES! Nicole lost her life, however her child will carry her unbreakable spirit within. Nicole dreamed of being a MODEL, as she walked in her DESTINY, Nicole lived her DREAM. Nicole already had the IMAGE that is known among the MODEL world! She didn’t lose her life changing her GOD-GIVEN IMAGE, she passed on her LEGACY to HER CHILD because she loved to live and minus the image equaled REAL LOVE! So I say to my Belated FRIEND NICOLE I will forever remember our time we shared being classmates and friends at Immaculate Conception in Bx, NY... You were definitely an ANGEL in DISGUISE! So the moral to my true story today is that IMAGE isn’t nothing if we don’t LOVE OURSELVES FIRST and LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST! THEN AND ONLY THEN CAN ONE REALLY ENDURE REAL LOVE! I say REST IN PEACE DR. WONDA WEST AND MY 5TH GRADE FRIEND NICOLE! YOU BOTH MADE YOUR UNERASABLE MARKS IN OUR HEARTS! Everyone it’s time for us to re-arrange our PRIORITIES! What are we really looking to gain from alternating our GOD-GIVEN IMAGE? Who are we looking to impress or to capture in the name of FALSE LOVE? Why not just live life to the fullest with what you have today? I will look in the mirror today and this day forward and be PROUD of my many changes of my body. Remember our bodies are our temples they are not meant to be touched unless it’s really necessary........I pray that each and everyone of us take the time to appreciate every part of our bodies, from the moles on our faces, to the war scars of fighting for a good cause and our marks of giving birth. God Bless each and everyone of you , I AM LOVED and LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST MINUS IMAGE I HAVE REAL LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!
use to always say she wanted to become a model back in 5th grade. If my memory serves me correct our crew included Nicole, Shonte, Andrea, Melissa C, Melissa M., Uwanda, and myself. We were a crew of different shades. I must note that I only stayed one year in Catholic school and asked my mother to put me back in Public School and please note I never regretted my request. Anywho, even though I lost contact with Nicole, I use to run into her while both of us were pursuing our dreams of being in the entertainment field. I must note that Nicole did pursue her modeling and I believe she also did some singing as well. I can remember that Nicole was kind of sickly as well, however she always had a burst of energy which included her smiling all the time, lol... As a matter of fact Nicole use to have braces as well. After her braces were taken off Nicole smile was even more bright, lol. Well, just two days ago as I went on a myspace tour I came across Nicole picture in a gentleman photo album and seen a picture of my 5th grade classmate holding her baby and in the caption it noted Nicole...RIP..I had to read the caption again because I thought I was reading it wrong and then I said to myself WHAT, NICOLE, RIP, NICOLE, NO, WHEN, WHAT, HOW, WHY..
Whew, I don't know where to begin, however I will say that this topic came into my spirit as I laid in my bed late last evening. I was re-capping on my responses to an early interview conducted by Chicago's own Marilyn's Cafe Society Radio Show. Just in case you don't know already I speak all truth and my words are directed by my Higher Power. Now don't get it twisted there are times when the flesh slips a few words of it's own, lol, however I try my best to stay on track as I am called to do.
Okay, I'm (the flesh) is about to get out of the way and allow my inner spirit (Holy Spirit) deliver the message for this topic. So get your reading glasses on, change your tube for any adjustments so you can read our every word without any distractions. Well, saying all of that let's get right into it.....
Oh my goodness, did you hear about the big sale that Dillards, Macy's, and Kmart are having? Oh my bad, wrong stores and wrong items. I mean with the way our children and communities are being treated you may as well say everyone is on the CLEARANCE rack... See, we know everything has a price tag on it..oh you don't agree, the next time you go into any store or any place of business look very closely to your bill of sale. Better yet, if you're a parent try not sending your child to school for several days and see how fast a school personal will call you asking the whereabouts of your child. Do you really think they are concerned about the welfare of your child? Let me give it to you straight, note, the system is losing money from their pockets because of your child absence! Now don't get me wrong you still have some teachers and school officials concerned about your child(ren) however they have to do what their job title requires.
See, me being the inner spirit, I can tell you that the world system has way too many people fooled. It's coming a time where all the truth has to be revealed to the masses. You know everytime you turn on your television and you hear the political candidates telling you what they want to do for you and why you should vote for them, however they will not come to your town to address your concerns, what about you always hearing that the school systems complaining about not having enough funds to give your child(ren) better teaching material and again noted that too many schools are in the red zone of failure because the government has taken away the basic skills our children needs to grow into productive citizens (programs that will challenge them and uplift them) and don't get me started, then again I will, lol, now with all the China made merchandises are being recalled basically on toys, um, I have to go there again, and tell the truth, 99.9% of your items in your homes from clothes, shoes, toys, furniture and electronics are made in CHINA, so do you really think you're health and well being is really a major concern of the world government?
I mean the corrupted flesh has placed the ENTIRE COMMUNITY on CLEARANCE SALE for anyone from any Country to buy at a low-cost and very little price, however there's always a price to pay. See, while you meaning the FLESH think you're getting a BARGAINING on LIFE, you're NOT! See the FLESH is not respecting their GOD-GIVEN SPIRIT a real chance to grow into the PERSON(S) GOD has ordained for you to BE!
Our communities are being flooded by 25%, 50% and even 75% off of it's original price tag. I am feeling from my own FLESH the pain she enduring because she has been given the gift of prophecy. See she doesn't speak nor walk for PROFITS, she is and remains covered with what she needs because she has committed herself to hear and obey. It saddens her to hear words from others that speak and act for themselves. She sees the needs for all children. She sees how the enemy tries to set her up before she can deliver her message to the masses. See, when you accept the gift as my FLESH has, your assigned inner spirit will speak to you. Now when you cross our path, meaning my Flesh (Tonya E.) and me (her inner spirit) I will have no choice but to test your entire armor. We can't be fooled by wolves clothing!
So, now that you know that there's a CLEARANCE SALE GOING ON IN OUR COMMUNITIES WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT IT? You're the MANAGER ON CALL 24/7, WE NEED YOU TO CLEAN UP YOUR SHOP (YOUR COMMUNITY)! There's so much work to do now, that one can't wait for the next elected official to sign their names on the dotted line to deliver more broken promises! It's time for everyone to take the time to RESEARCH for oneself on what your worldly CONSTITUTIONS are CREATING A GENOCIDE among what you all know as the EARTH! Remember you were born with HUMAN RIGHTS why are you FLESHES fighting for something that has been GOD-GIVEN? I can only speak the TRUTH! Also please keep in mind that there are wars going on that does NOT have to BE, know that it is ALL BEING DONE IN THE NAME OF MONEY, TERRIORITY, GREED AND LACK OF RESPECT FOR MANKIND! HEY ALL I AM SAYING IS GET IN THE KNOW AND BECOME MORE CONSCIOUS OF HOW YOU'RE SPENDING YOUR FINANCES! PLEASE NOTE YOUR FINANCES CONSISTS OF YOUR MONEY, TIME, ENERGY, MENTAL, SPIRITUAL AND PHYSICAL BEINGS! WHAT'S ON THE CLEARANCE RACK JUST MAYBE BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH!
Peace and blessings Family, Friends and Assoicates,
We pray all is well with each and everyone of you today. After seeing with our own eyes and hearing with our own ears we kept asking what is it that people are not getting? Why is it that when we speak the TRUTH people question what church we go to, or they turn their backs by not returning emails, calls or just blankly disappear? Well, this morning as I, Tonya E. had awaken my Lord filled within my spirit II Timothy 4:4 and 4:11. I read the entire chapter, however I will type out those two scriptures and you will see for yourself why we were filled with confirmation to our simple question.
Scriptures feed into my spirit the morning of 10/24/07 5:30 a.m.
II Tim 4:4 (AMP) And will turn aside from hearing the truth and wander off into myths and man-made fictions.
II Tim 4:11 (AMP) Luke alone is with me. Get Mark and bring him with you, for he is very helpful to me for the ministry.
I will also type out II Tim 4:3 (AMP) for better understanding..
For the time is coming when (people) will not tolerate (endure) sound and wholesome instruction, but, having ears itching (for something pleasing and gratifying), they will gather to themselves one teacher after another to a considerable number, chosen to satisfy their own liking and to foster the errors they hold.
So after reading my message for the day, I am now well equipped to handle the non-believers to my calling, "Me telling it like it is and that's the TRUTH!" I can't be nobody else but whom I was created to be! So from this day forward I will no longer scratch my head and look for answers as to why people are so lost, nor why one has to be concerned about my religion background, my answer has been given.
Just in case anyone is still wandering who I am be guided by, my answer has been put into my spirit, that I am one of the CHOSEN ONES! I am being directly directed and instructed by My Heavenly Father, My Savior Jesus Christ and my assigned BodyGuard my Holy Spirit! What a great feeling to know who I belong too and my PURPOSE!
If you should ever feel a bit different than the rest of your family, friends, co-workers or even foes ask God to identity your TRUE INDENTITY!
As always, we send many blesssings to everyone in every step you take. It's time to get our lives in ORDER! No more time for excuses!
Respect Given Always,
Your Ndpendent Woman
Tonya E. aka Miss Right Now
" The New Harriet Tubman "
* I don't live nor walk for FAME, however I live and walk for CHANGE!*
Peace & blessings to everyone, we pray that all is well with each and everyone that is among our myspace list of friends as well as everyone that reads our blogs. It's been a while since we posted our thoughts and current events, however we're blessed to be here today to share with you, smile.
Our Subject titled HOUSTON WE HAVE A PROBLEM, because we DO! Just in case you have not watched any sort of NEWS segments online or on your TUBE our children are under attack. I say that because just within the last two weeks we have seen a high number of shooting incidents on college campuses, in high schools, and even elementary students bringing guns to school and even pointing at others kids on the BUS! I have been asking myself WHAT in the HECK is going ON and WHY are incidents occurring. I heard one woman caller on CNN last evening in regards to the 8 years old boy that brought the gun on the school bus and was supposely waving it at the others on the bus. The caller said apparently this child doesn't have a father in the house and what is the mother doing. I actually had to talk back to the television tube and ask what does not having a father in the household has to do with it, then my inner spirit said she's right I am not in the homes of so many! I am talking about our Heavenly Father, our High Power, our Allah, or whichever name you prefer to name your Creator. See, we have gotten so use to putting the blame on man that we forgot that so many forgot to look towards their Heavenly Father that is with US ALWAYS for comfort, answers and directions. I know I may be going a bit deep for many, however, we only speak the TRUTH here, nothing sugarcoated will be delivered from the mouth of our BELLY!
Today, with the world in so much CHAOS, one that is spiritually connect will understand the attacks are in season. However for those that are on a physical beings will think lets continue to go to war with each other, let's continue to support events that we know that are not meant for us, and/or let's continue to numb ourselves with our favorite materialistic items to feel good. Now with all that has been said where are the cares and thoughts for our young people? Whose really taking care of our YOUTHS? Why are our YOUTHS feeling like they are not WORTHY to be LOVED? Why are we loosing our YOUNG MEN to the STREETS instead of BUILDING them UP to be an ENTREPRENUER in their GOD-GIVEN TALENTS? Why are so many YOUNG LADIES aiming towards being the NEXT TOP MODEL or even live a RISKY lifestyle in front of BILLIONS of people for the hopes of becoming FAMOUS or even for A SAKE OF $50,000? NEWS ALERT FOR EVERY DOLLAR ONE GETS PLEASE KNOW THAT YOU'RE TAXED SO WHAT YOUR EYES ARE SEEING ARE DECEITFUL AMOUNTS - DON'T QUIT YOUR DAY JOB! KNOW YOUR PURPOSE FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO!
Okay going back to the subject, why are our so-called LEADERS not addressing the core of the DISEASE! Why are our VILLAGES still sleeping? Why are our PARENTS not going to the PTA MEETINGS? Why are we blaming others for things WE NEED TO BE DOING in our OWN BACKYARDS? Why are people having CHILDREN and not taking their RESPONSIBILITIES of RAISING THEM? WHY ARE THERE SO MANY EXCUSES INSTEAD OF PEOPLE ACCEPTING THEIR FLAWS AND WORK AT MAKING A DIFFERENCE? WHY? WHY?WHY?
The media covered the JENA 6 for a good two weeks when the protests and rallies were happening. Now Mr. Bell is back in jail due to what the judge claims to be some sort of violation of a previous incident. Why is Meagan Williams of West Virgina still in the hospital and no coverage is being made about her incident? She was beaten, tortured by six whites which included two sets of mothers, their sons and two other accomplices, however the media claimed she was involved with one of the men. That maybe true however, this woman still didn't deserve to be beaten, tortured and called the N*word while being beaten and made to eat rat feces. What are we telling our young girls and women in general, they are not worthy to be fought for at the same level as the boys and men? The aftermath there has been other incidents which has occurred among other black teens being beaten and tortured at the hands of white boys, but the media is not doing too much coverage, I wonder why! The truth of the matter is that RACISM has never left. Racism is not only against black and whites, racism is among every race own race. WE have gotten so caught with all the WORLDLY DISTRACTIONS that we have lost our CARES OF MAKING A DIFFERENCE! It really ticks me off when someone out of the BLUE address an issue because they NOW are going to THROUGH something and they need SUPPORT! My question to them is where were you when we needed you on the FRONT LINE of SUPPORTING US?
THE ALARM HAS BEEN RINGING HOWEVER TOO MANY PEOPLE HAVE FELL ON DEAF EAR TO WAKE-UP! I am asking that everyone take the time to evaluate yourselves and ask how can I make a difference in my own communities? You don't leave home without your American Express, so why are you leaving home and your communities in a M.E.S.S. (Missing Every Spiritual Seed)? You can look out your window right now and see what needs to be done in your own front yard! Don't bypass your own over someone outside your home! Everyone needs love and attention.
Whew, so saying all of that, I ask that we seriously take the time out to MAKE A BIG DEPOSIT TODAY! NO I AM NOT ASKING FOR YOUR MONEY ALL I AM ASKING FOR IS YOUR LOVE AND ATTENTION! IF WE DON'T TAKE CARE OF OUR OWN, THEN WHY SHOULD WE EXPECT SOMEONE ELSE TO TAKE A STEP?
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* We don't live nor walk for FAME, however we live and walk for CHANGE!*
Okay, I have been watching from a distance and I am sadden to see so many people missing the core issue. It also saddens me to know that yes our community rallied for Jena 6, however somehow one of our sister's named Megan Williams was attacked by the verse gender of Jena 6 from by sides. Megan is black and was attacked by 6 whites, Jena 6 a white teen was beaten by 6 blacks, please someone help me to understand how can we continuous allow the media and others to trick y(our) vision. The last I heard about Megan in the news was a day after on the news claiming that SHE KNEW HER ATTACKERS and SHE WAS INVOLVED IN A PAST RELATIONSHIP WITH ONE OF THE MEN! UM DID THE JENA 6 NOT NOW THEIR VICTIM? I maybe single and please note I am not desparate to just date any man, however, looking at the line-up and looking at the disfigured face of Megan I just can't seem to picture anyone of the attackers being her past boyfriend. See even if she was in relationship with one of her attackers, the words that were spoken to her as she was tortured was even more disgusting.. Anyone can see that one this is a form of domestic violence, if she was really involved with anyone of her attackers, she was still tortured by six white people. Media covered Mick Vick and his treatment among his dog fighting, however they refuse to cover serious issue among our sister Megan Williams. Are we women just a piece of nothing? Do we not have a place here on this darn land we know as EARTH? If it services me correct we women did come from a MAN, so I can't seem to understand how we can be missed! Let me not forget, every person on this land and myspace was BIRTHED BY A WOMAN, just in case you missed that subject in class!
I am not going to speak to much right now because I have to conduct my mommy duties. See I am raising a son and I pray all that I have endured from his father to my past relationship, does not take a toll of how he should treat WOMEN in a whole. I will speak on this matter later however I watched the Congressional meeting (missing about 45 minutes)yesterday in regards to Imus to the Industry and I was at awes to see again how we speak about making a difference, but our WOMEN and SISTERS were put on LAST and the room was left with at LEAST 4 if that Congress people and the spectators along with the camera people were G(ONE)! IF THE SUBJECT STARTED OFF WITH IMUS I BELIEVE PANEL 3 WHICH INCLUDED 4 WOMEN AND ONE MAN SHOULD HAVE GONE FIRST! I have to keep it real, people! I am the NEW HARRIET TUBMAN, I don't plan to FREE my PEOPLE from UNDERGROUND TODAY, however I DO PLAN on BRINGING AWARENESS to PEOPLE ABOVE GROUND! WE CAN'T CONTINUOUSLY ASK FOR FREEDOM WHEN WE KEEP MAKING EXCUSES TO FIT ONES PERSONAL NEEDS AND AGENDAS!
Tonya E. has seen much and experienced much in her walk and remain silence to many that THOUGHT they were getting over, lol... Silence is sometimes better than reacting in the matter one tries to take you, however, get ready for THE NEW HARRIET TUBMAN! My MOVEMENT/CAMPAIGN is equipped with much more than taming ones tongue. PEOPLE FORGOT TO CHECK MY RESUME...
So I ask again for those that are really into making a difference and not STRIFE, " What does Jena 6 & Megan Williams HAVE IN COMMON?"
P.S.
This just came across my thoughts, is VA not closer to NYC, um is VA not close to DC, I'm just asking how is it that we forgot about Megan Williams.. There were many exits that lead to her calling, however we have fallen deaf ear to another WOMAN we call our SISTER! PLEASE NOTE THIS IS NOT A MALE BASHING SUBJECT, I GOT ENOUGH FROM MY FORMER CORPORATE JOB THAT MADE A WOMAN OF VALUE, RESPECT AND SELF WORTH FEEL HER ISSUES STEMMED FROM PMS. I AM VERY MUCH IN TUNE WITH MY INNER BEINGS. WE WOMEN HAVE JUST AS MUCH RIGHTS TO EXPRESS OURSELVES JUST AS MEN! THERE'S NO ROOM FOR ANY EXC(USE)S LET'S JUST DEAL WITH THE TRUTH! WAKE UP PEOPLE, WAKE UP!
September 23, 2007, whew, I first want to thank God for granting me another day to make a difference in my own way. As I awaken this morning and checked the news online and some bulletins in myspace my heart became again sadden. There's just so much going on this planet we know as Earth that it’s starting to feel like we’re trapped and don’t know which way to turn and to whom to speak with in confidant. Well, let me tell you what I have been experiencing and you check for yourself to see where you are in this season. Okay, we know our Summer season is about to Fall down and our Fall season will be falling right in. Just as our season changes we as human also go through a season changing within our lives. I will tell you where I am and you can feel free to let me know where I can find you. See within the last month and even two weeks ago I have been experiencing a spiritual roller coaster. Meaning my emotions has been riding like a wave. Note I am in full connection with my inner spirit so this is why I am writing to you today. See, when you know you’re not feeling well, you tend to take medicine, however when you’re not feeling well spiritually you have to take your spiritual medicine. Everyone is different however I tend to meditate and read my Bible. If I don't get an answer then I tend to just sit still and wait before I make my decisions today. Please know that I was not always like that and I made many bad decisions because of allowing my emotions to lead. Please know that what we allow ourselves to be exposed to will take a toll on us always. I recently went through a situation of letting go the thought of someone I truly thought would be my husband to be, to find out he is not the one, to watching the stages of the Jena 6 reminding me of a Martin Luther King movement with the wrong Leaders leading, to bulletins of buy my products, come to my party, free drinks until 12 midnight, to my son experiencing for the first time a white classmate call out the word niggas in his classroom, to finding out more past dirt on my son’s father, to learning more about my family history, to sending out packages and not receiving a quick I received the package or a quick thank you , to Bush threatening to veto children health care benefits, to The Secret is gaining more believers than the Bible and would you believe that people expect me to be normal. I tell you people we have definitely lost contact with each other. As I look through my eyes, my vision is clear that we’re in a whole heap of mess. Just in case you’re not aware everything m(us)t repeat itself. So just in case you have been in a time capsule, you’re just about to be awaken to find y(our)self back in the 60's. The only difference is that many people are not supporting the things our ancestors so fought for because again they don’t know whom to talk to and whom to trust today. I am sadden to hear the results of Jena 6 and now the so-called white supermisict supposely exposed the names and addresses of the families of the Jena 6 young men. I don’t now about you, but um, I don’t think when the families called on Al and Jesse they thought things through. I am sorry but um Al & Jesse is not Martin and Malcolm. Oh I wish Johnny Cochran was still alive. Majority of our great leaders has past away or on the verge of just throwing their hands up. Are we really taking the time to think things out before allowing anger to take on our actions? I mean, I am just as upset, however I am a bit more upset that our own people still continue to use the word Nigga/Nigger on a daily usage. How can we get mad when someone else use it out of content? There's no love for the word at all. Before we can demand respect from others, we have to first respect ourselves. I don’t watch too much tele(vision) because I again believe it’s another form of posion, however everytime I do turn on the tube, it’s nothing worth watching. Excuse me for a minute, when I was growing up we had more family shows than reality shows. We had more game shows than court shows. We had more love for each other than the love we have today. I really feel within my soul, that the word love has been buried along with it’s true meaning. I think I just summed up all of our problems, if people really knew the true meaning of LOVE then we wouldn’t be in this situation right now. Love wouldn’t cost a thing. Love would stand the test of time. Each and everyone of us are on the quest of being LOVED and ACCEPTED. We have created such a mess on the land we know as EARTH that it has infected the whole entire land! We can’t take care of our own homes today. We’re always working to take care of other people backyards. Excuse me again, are you doing anything to make your own community a better place to live. I mean seriously, how many times have you gone out of your way to make a donation to another country or organization outside your own neighborhood? How many times have you supported someone other outside your own neighborhood? If you answered many of times, then, I thank you dearly for being honest. I will admit I did the same thing, before I woke up. We’re in a season of waking up. We’re in a season of changes. This season of Fall will not be anything like you ever experienced before in your life. It’s time for everyone to take the time out to really re-evaluate their positions today. What would you do if they closed down all party activities for your race? What would you do if you couldn’t no longer shop at your favorite store anymore because of your race? What would you do if you lost your high paying job because of your race? What would you do if, the day you arose and the news reported that Congress passed a law last night that no minority race is allowed outside their homes between the hours of 5 p.m. to 5 a.m.? I mean what would you do if your rights are taken away from you within a snap? Remember, if you can your ancestors fought for what you have today, why are you not fighting for your future generation to reap from your hard work and determination of making thing better today? I mean really people when are we going to wake up and stop talking. We need people to start thinking and pulling together and take on actions. I don’t know about you, but I am seeing the light that other s refuse to see and accept. Our world is in it’s last seasons, and all that folks are talking about holds no value if we can’t keep things in order. Oh yes, I almost forgot to mention people, just in case you’re worried about your children toys and cribs being made in China as a danger, um check your clothes, shoes, furniture, um darn just about everything we have in our procession is made in CHINA! We’re all in danger of some form because we’re daily intaking China’s material in our lives. What’s the difference in shopping in Macy’s, Dillards, Kmart, or even Walmart? Nothing, you’re being tricked to believe you’re better than the next because you just purchased an item that cost 4x as much as the next person’s item. Well, I don’t think you will feel that way when you check to see where it was made. Do you really think they’re using different material for different stores? Can anyone tell me whose really caring for the consumers today? In my opinion NO-BODY! Everything is just a price tag away! It’s time to get the FACTS and accept the TRUTH people. We really have not lived the (AM)ER(I)CAN dream. Just some food for thoughts and something that was on the mind of Tonya E...this was solely written from the Flesh, there’s a difference! My spirit lives within me however I choose to get directly in tune with the FLESH today! Can anyone relate? Are you really awake? P.S. This is a public announcement, Please do not ask me for my opinion if you're not ready to receive the truth. I can't stomach anymore fallouts because I refuse to be part of or go along with things that are not TRUE!
Written by Tonya E. & Inner Spirit
September 3, 2007
The invisible Tornado has ripped through every urban community, who has been hired to clean up the damages? Just like Hurricane Katrina came in as a category 5, and killed thousands of peoples once it hit, it also left unaccountable people lives in disarray. With all the hoopla that is going on in every community whether it’s about the cause and effect of hip hop, Dom Imus being fired for calling black women out of their names, to our civil right leaders claiming to voice their concerns about how our people are being mistreated - talk about false prophets, to Bush clans jumping the ship before Sept. 1, to one of the republicans being fired for merely stomping his foot a certain way in the mens bathroom which claims to be have been a code for invitation, my bad can one foot just so happens to fall asleep, it happens to me a lot because of an injury does that make me gay?, to people claiming to help the churchgoers by exposing certain Pastors/ Bishop at the pulpit..dang talk about and invisible Tornados and Hurricanes. Who will be hired to clean up the mess? For many of you that know I am a woman that writes from the spirit and not by my flesh. For the new readers let me introduce my writer she’s known as the Invisible Woman ! Remember her?, well she’s back after a mini break. Let me move out of the way and let her speak, flesh is about to take a nap, see you all as we cross each other paths. Hey is anyone planning on driving today? Maybe I will see you then, smile, okay the invisible woman is telling me to go, got to go right now, hey pay close attention..
What’s up my inner spirits, how are we doing today, I know I have been away for awhile but whew with all this madness that is going on in this land of the world, a spirit has to be careful when to come out. See I am always with my flesh named Tonya E. however I only allow her to write when the time is right, and please know that the time is right now.
Okay, with all the truth written above one has to really think if they are being part of the problem (the world) or part of the solution (of the world). See man has been walking dead for while now thinking that all things are working in their favor. Well let me be the one to let the secret out the bag, nothing is going to be okay, if there is no real leaders and soldiers cleaning up the damages the invisible tornado and/or hurricane has swept through your community. See just like the characteristics of the tornados and hurricanes, man has allowed physical things to take on the same actions as them. Oh you don’t get it, okay, look when man can’t see things they are hesitate on believing right, well, when the spirit of destruction swept into your community you may have been sleeping, working, on your way to school, house of worship, reading, partying, or just researching something other on the internet.
See I travel a lot even when my flesh is resting I am traveling in the walks of different areas, sometimes I even go back into her past to wake her up to see how far she has come. Have anyone of you ever heard of the word storms or even when people refer to storms when one is going through some hard times in their lives. Well, what do you think the invisible tornadoes and hurricanes are, you got it STORMS?!
See if man can’t clean up after a hurricane Katrina, however they tend to find monies to support a war, how can you honestly think they are concerned with cleaning up your invisible tornados and/or hurricanes after it hits your community. This is why it takes a village (community) to take care of it’s own. Um deep, I know somebody is understanding where I am going with this one. See, it’s easy to complain to one another, however when someone comes into your community to make a difference and they are NOT HIRED by the CORPORATE LENDERS the community turn their backs by not supporting. However, when a person that is seen on ones tube (television) as many people calls them CELEBRITIES sends out a press release or media alert of being in ones village (community) then BAM everyone and their cousins decides to come out to support. We have people that don’t live among the village that tends to make their travels in the village(community) for the day! Hey inner spirits you have to get your flesh in order. There are definitely some major issues with the way the villages (communities) are living and breathing.
How many more Martins, Tubmans, Kennedys, Truths, Parks and X do we need to send into your communities to be killed for what they lived and died for, YOU?! Every person has ancestors that bleed, been beaten, sweated in the fields and made hardcore sacrifices for you today. They didn’t give excuses, they didn’t have the rights you have today, they didn’t live in the finer homes you lavish yourselves in today, they lived and breathed what was in their hearts. Their hearts were filled with LOVE, FAITH, & COURAGE! They didn’t live their lives for a quick gratification, they lives their lives in having faith that their future generations would be able to have a better life.
Whew, my goodness, just to think that people are attempting to make XC(U)SES for not making a difference. Oh don’t forget parents has it hard today, well, let me the first to let you know that the parents today, don’t know what it is to have it hard, try living in the times your ancestors did! I know remember I am the invisible woman. I have been around a lot longer than my flesh. I have been through many wars and storms to be able to tell you like it is! Now the question is are you willing to accept the TRUTH as it is being TOLD?!
So when the next time the invisible tornado and/ or hurricane hit your community, you need to ask who will be hired or who can you call on to clean up the damages?! Well, I am just the inner spirit, but I would first call on my Higher Power for instruction, but the first one to call is the person that is staring back at you in the MIRROR!
There are many damages from the past tornados and hurricanes still lingering in the communities. People are either walking on it, walking over it or just simply ignoring it as if it just doesn’t exist! There’s daily storms brewing everyday! Will you continue to run and hide or will you take a stand and stand tall during the storm? The choice is yours!
Webster Definitions:
Community : all persons living in a particular locality: joint sharing
Mirror : anything that gives a true picture or reflection
Hurricane : a windstorm of intense severity: a topical cyclone
Storm : an atomospheric disturbance, with high wind, rain or snow, a vehement outbreak, a violent assault
Tornado : a destructive whirlwind
Um, as I was playing solitare, yes I said solitare, my inner spirit and thoughts starting talking and I decided to join in by writing out what is being said. Special Report Miss Right Now thoughts are being delivered live and direct - shh - pay close attention! For the past couple of days this word cliques has been in my path and now it has been asked by my thoughts to my spirits is there a difference between cliques and gangs? Well, I will deliver the message from my dome and you think for yourself the difference and voice your opinion if you choose. If not at least we had your thoughts for the moment to think about the subject, smile...
So here we go, thought ask is there a difference with the two and my inner spirit says, NO! um, well I flesh had to interact and ask how are the two NOT different even though many will see one as being protrayed as Good and the other as Bad (Evil)! Well, move out the way flesh and thought, the spirit is about to release its definition.. Spirit, see when people come together and form their groups, cliques, posse, or gangs as many names to be listed they come as one with the people they feel comfortable with. Each group form a bond from their spiritual connection through pain, joy, anger, frustration, happiness, worshipping, schooling, workforce, mutual friend connections, marriages, singleness, boredom, myspace and etc.. I think you all get it.. see, whatever reason a group of people connect and become as a group, clique, gang, or etc. they are taking the role un-consciously of being looked as the same character, beliefs, attitudes and so-on, I again believe you get the drift..
See so many people are not use to being by themselves, or even knowing who they are so they are easy targets of wanting to feel like they belong so they look for cliques, gangs, groups or so far to be able to speak about their peers and feel accepted.. The unfortunate thing about it is that they lose themselves and their own character and transform into someone other that is not part of their God-given formula (ingredients) I like to say that word, lol, so when they choose their cliques, groups, gangs or so-forth, they have decided to take on ALL issues that are destined to occur in the happenings of their circles... Note every clique, gang, group or so-forth ALWAYS start off GREAT, lol, then when someone in the circle decides to act in different or wake up from their dream, then it causes friction and then other ISSUES comes about..
Oh you need some examples, okay, well least say back-biting, jealousy, enviness, anger, frustration, adultery, you get my drift, check in your local Bible or religion book and read for yourself the issues of life, it's already been written..I am just giving you a little of what you will experience.. then before you know it the cliques, gangs, groups, and so-forth members are no longer as TIGHT as they were when they first started out as being GREAT! Remember I said EVERYTHING ALWAYS STARTS OFF GREAT!
So now that one has awaken from their dream, they now have to deal with rumors, heresays', humility, as well as trying to explain their REAL character as to who they REALLY ARE!.. So whether one is in a clique, group, gang or so-forth one needs to know who THEY are THEMSELVES.. Everyone is always in need of someone to talk to besides, me their inner Spirit, however one has to know the person they choose to talk too...Many faces has smiles, however their inner person can be one to set you up on a spiritual, mental, or sometimes physcial roller coaster...
Its' okay to be by yourself, you allow self to get in tune with WHAT'S REALLY REAL, and one will be able to SOUL SEARCH for their REAL PURPOSE of being here, you know this planet called EARTH! One can be a teamplayer on any team, however a real team-player is not going to accept the deceitful actions being done or distributed with their names, character and reputation on the line.. So I ask you what is your reason for being part your clique, gang, group or so-forth? What are you gaining from being part of your clique, gang, group or so-forth?
So to answer again is there a difference with cliques vs gangs I again will have to say NO! It's part of the LAW OF ATTRACTION.. same meaning just a different NAME!
Whew, wow (while others watch), I don't know about you flesh, but I think I understand much more and can accept what Spirit just delivered! Um, I guess I will take this message today and continue my journey of making a difference in every clique, gang, group or so-forth I cross paths with today!
This is one reason why one should not judge a book by it's cover, if you really want to know take the time out for yourself to read each chapter. Heck, talk to each person in the book and I gurantee you that your thoughts of each person will NOT be what you THOUGHT!
Written 8.11.07
By Tonya E.aka Flesh, Spirit, & Thought
As I sit back relax listening to the radio, I am stunned to hear the same darn songs, how can one get their mind right and their money when all the songs are telling you to spend it, telling people how you're spending it and um how tall one should be "Shorty!" I think, anywho that is not my real reason for writing this blog, I just caught a feeling of starting it off this way, hey it's my blog so I am free to do what I want to at least for right now..
Okay my question to everyone is What's really going on people and I ask this question because of all the MESS that is going on around this planet we know as EARTH! Just when you thought you could make sense of things, bam , something much more bizzare is slapped in your face..
I'm sadden about the Newark, NJ youths being shot, killed and one survivor, I am sick of hearing people talking more mess and deceiving people for their own good, I am sick of hearing of one putting the mega pastors on blast and writing books claiming to expose the false PROPHETS, well if one was so concern about helping people what are they looking to gain from writing this books and putting a price tag on it, can we say for PROFITS, then I am so sick of hearing about so-called leaders voice their fake concerns about the communities when all they are concerned with is their next paycheck, I am so sick of others claiming having to be part of the problem but somehow they are part of the solution only because they have joined forces with a what use to be a respectable organization at one given time, darnit thank goodness I take my medicine to keep me sane, hey that's the Word! You know as I read the Bible more and more and as I am getting more understanding everything that is happening as I type is suppose to happen..Even when I sat back and thought about my own past and people I have encountered and betrayed me, hey get use to it, these things are suppose to happen, it's already written, we just have to be smart enough to know whom to choose to be in our circle, even when one mate decides to cheat, hey that too is already written, remember life is about a series of issues...Oh yeah it also stated that when you have riches and goods you will encounter ssooo many friends, hear what I am saying, however when your riches and money is gone so are those so-called friends.. get with the program, this is all suppose to happen, if you take the time to READ for yourself and get the understanding many more people would be able to handle any circumstances which arise, because without FAITH, man will be DESTROYED!
So saying all of that, I ask again, What's really going on PEOPLE? It's time to stop, look and listen to your inner spirit, not your parents, spouse, friends, associates or even your so-called Christian brothers and sisters. It's time for you to get in tune with YOUR INNER SPIRIT and make some major changes as to which way you're going to choose to live your life! Too many options are given to us today, which has made what seems ole' so right , turn into be ole' so wrong! Don't be deceived today, get in the right lane! It has been said that the light and dark can be seen in ones EYES, it's time to look one another STRAIGHT in the EYES and recognize the person you're REALLY dealing with!
Be careful as to what you allow your eyes to see, your ears to hear and your heart to receive! Your mind is a terrible thing to abuse! No time for excuses, make today your day for receiving your BREAKTHROUGH! I am merely a Child of God and a Messenger, don't label me as anything other without my permission!
Much love and respect,
Your Ndpendent Woman
Tonya E. aka Miss Right Now
* I'm a teamplayer, however I'm allergic to cliques! *
